Next Achievement

Yes, I made it this time for my marathon.

21km all the way.

This year, the route was very different. We ran across the Shereas Bridge as usual but covered the Marina Barrage. The path was uneven and I would say it made running a bit tougher. Every pace seemed lighter especially hubby was behind me throughout the journey. I knew he will give me his morale support and because of him, I can complete the run. I got my strength & power from him.

Still Thinking Hard

Time: 1:35am

Yet to sleep. Honey Celestine is right besides me. Hubby is watching The Olympic Games again. Almost every night without fail. What do I know? Men like him are always passionate about sports.

At this wee hour, I'm still trying to plan an outing for Honey but where should we go?

Happy Birthday Ariyen

10-08-08, Sunday

About to post this bloggie and realised that I did not have any picture taken with our little birthday gal, Ariyen.

The only one was:

Hubby, Celestine, Zien & Ariyen

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ARIYEN

Vaccination

07-08-08, Thursday

Celestine had 2 vaccinations on the same day. MMR-Primary Dose (Measles, Mumps & Rubella) and the other was Chickenpox which was an option but I chose to give her a vaccine since Mummy hasn't gotten any.

She was brave, at least she did not burst out crying when the needle poke into her thigh.

From what I understand, the injection may cause a fever in the next 5 days. Thank God, she is perfectly strong. This is important. Day & nite, we were all trying to measure her temperature. Panadol standby.

Her weight was 10.6kg. According to the paediatrician, our Honey Celestine is perfectly fine. Nothing to worry about.

See this is how my Honey Darling Celestine looks.

@ Coffee Club, Takashimaya

Design or $$$

Was loitering around the shoe department with Elna & Celestine and this pair of cheena heels caught my eyes.

1st, I like the embroidery and the length of the heels. For all I know, this heels will look dainty on me.

2nd, after a glimpse on the price tag, I can't believe what I just saw.

Yeah, that's right! The price is $39.90. USUAL PRICE was $259.90!!!

This is crazy!

This was too tempting. I will feel sorry if I don't buy.

Guess what, I got it.

Was wondering if I got it out of purely the design or just the value? Rather both?

Well, it doesn't matter anyway cuz I got the cheena heels. But to be frank, if the usual price was $259.90, trust me, I wouldn't have bought it. Was it the brand or the design that the shoes gotta price it so steep?

Fail Again

Failed Again! Just came back from my exam! Needless to say, the header speak for itself.

CLICK! The result appear as FAILED!

The invigilator handed my result slip & off I go! Folded the slip and stuff it in my bag.

Who can I blame but myself?

The 1st person I was seeking refuge was my dear hubby. Was controlling my tears.

Fiona: Can I go for a walk?

Hubby: Can you come home 1st?

Fiona: Can I be alone for awhile?

Hubby: Can you come home please? I can be there for you if you want to. Just come home 1st. Let me see you at the station.

The next person I called was S. She's a wonderful friend. She is willing to coach me despite her busy schedule and dating!

Concurrently, met up with hubby at the station. As sweet as before, hubby planted a kiss on my forehead. This time, we remain silent. Hubby was understanding, he knew I needed space. All I want was companion, someone who walk with me through all journey without uttering a word. My grievous cry and frustration emerged. But still, not a word from hubby.

I need to attune my thoughts.

Somehow, my inner soul has done the right job. These was what she had whispered to my ears.

Fail again! Never mind, try again! Try & Try & Try!

Always remember, each failure will only make you better and knowledgeable.

You will be successful!

Don't lose heart.

Go on ...

You are a survivor.

No one can help you but yourself.

Stand up Fiona.

Don't be despair!

This is not YOU!

Overcome the hurdles.

You are a strong woman.

Prove to yourself & Celestine.

You can make it.

Just go on.

Fiona, you can make it.

Tomorrow is a better day!

Here I am! I'm back again to my Dreamy Bloggie.

Bless myself and Bless everyone who is reading my Dreamy Bloggie.

I'm not dreaming but I know, what my inner soul has spoken will come true, one fine day.

Yes, I'm going to make it right.

Even though, the PASSING of this exam is important but the fundamental is my attitude towards learning and leading a happy life.

Something To Ponder

2 days ago, a friend of mine ~ S had wrote me a sms that triggered my thoughts and reflection.


Before I get started, let me apologise to S as I hope she wouldn't mine me writing my thought through this dreamy bloggie.


This was what she wrote:


S: Fiona, very nice to know you and I'm thankful for that. I see how you really go all the way to care for your hubby and daughter, every thought, every action.

Fiona: Haha... I'm stunned to see what you wrote :) I'm really flattered... honestly, I'm nothing as compred to others. Don't forget, I'm still a woman who pursue love, passion & also buying lotsa nice shoes hee... if got a chance, I will share with you a story from someone who is dearest to me :)

S: Haha... you deserve that compliment :-) not easy for a woman to give up things that shes used to like to do for her family. I Salute to you :-)

End of conversation

A day later, this was what I wrote to S.

Fiona: By the way, was pondering of your words last evening, I felt I'm useless as compared to people like you all. Cuz everyone is working & securing a good job wheras I'm not achieving anything at this age. This is quite shameful! Everyone is working hard but not me :( I'm slacking...

S: Hey gal, you were successful once as a Regional Marketeer in your career. But now you have turned this career success into family success. You are now a successful mum with a cute daughter, supportive and caring hubby, don't have to worry about financial. It's a different type of success. To work doesn't mean success, it only allows you to be financial better. But to have money, doesn't mean you will be happy. Sometimes, money brings more trouble. To be happy is the most important! To define your own success, you are already very successful from having a career to a wife and now to a mother. I know you want to reduce Deon's burden, don't force yourself too hard. All you need is time and opportunity and it's coming :)

After reading, I was really touched by the way she described about me.

To reflect on my life at this stage, I have nothing to complain. It's true that I have a great supportive hubby who is always there for me irregardless financially, career switching, or even to my emotional swings ...

I'm thankful to have my hubby to teach me in all aspects of life. He's my coach and my angel.

He teach me not to be too complacent in life. I may fall!

And I guess, I remember his words and that is when I started to move forward. To pick up all the broken pieces I left in the past and moving forward to a new career. Bear with me for another 2 years & I will show you the results.

I suppose everyone is struggling in some part of their lives. Nothing is easy and we just have to move forward. As for me, I will continue to work hard and strive for the best. Like what S was mentioning, I need time & opportunity. It's coming!

Year 2009, is definitely a good year for those who born in the Year of Snake. Beware, Snake is strong & they will shine!