New Role

Being a 1st time mother has definitely moulded me to be more mature. To put my gal as my top pirority list and to think of her before I act.

For a start, I wasn't prepared especially the limited sleep I'm experiencing. To wake up almost every 2 hourly for breast-feeding. Breast-feeding was a long process for me. By the time when I got back to my sleeping mode, our little cutie pie is whining for another feeding. At times, I was frustrated and lost. Unable to control the situation so the only resort is to sit and cry.

Thank God, I have a very kind supportive mother who is always there for me. She helps to pacify my daughter. Honestly, I feel guilty each time I throw tantrum towards my mother and daughter. I hope I could better control my temper.

I was as stubborn as an ox trying very hard to breastfeed my baby. People around me has encouraged to supplement formula milk for my honey so that I can rest more. Despite all these, I continue to breast-feed. Told myself no matter how tire I am, mummy Fiona will try her best to give. Unless no milk and that will be another story.

As a mother, I'm learning. Learning to be a good one. Learning to be a good communicator. Learning to meet my baby's demand. There are simply too much things to learn.

If anyone happen to read my bloggie, please tell me your experience being a mother. Maybe should get my hubby to write on my bloggie and tell me his new role too.

Right now ...I'm tying to balance my life, my new role and searching for a space for myself.
July 10, 2007